September

So it is here.  The month I dread.  For a while, I thought it is going to be much pleasant.  But nope, I don’t think so.  It is still the same.  It is going to be miserable.  I can feel it already.  I know people will say move on, live for the now and not the past.  But how many knows the feelings inside?  Have they experienced it?  Of what a total failure I was in not being able to carry a healthy normal child.  Have they been through what it is like to have a child and yet, never even get to celebrate his first birthday eventhough you have planned it all?

They won’t.  No one will.  So, probably, I will just go hide and hope September blows over soon.  Real soon.